Sadly, my story doesn’t include psychedelics and out-of-body experiences. The first time I heard about Human Design was on New Year’s Eve of 2012 – from a man who was my spiritual master in 2008, and he was also a jerk (but that’s a different story!).
Back then, using body-oriented therapy, improv, yoga and massage techniques, he helped me to get in touch with the essence of me – my intuition, and to start trusting my body. In Yekaterinburg, Russia, on New Year’s Eve of 2012 somewhere between jumping into the snow and consuming a stuffed chicken the tatarski way, I missed the buzz of what Human Design was all about even though the subject seemed interesting. Soon I flew to Asia and got distracted.
Two months later, I got stuck in Minsk, Belarus, waiting for my visa to Canada. In Minsk, I started to dig. The information invited me (I’m a Projector and my life is a movement from one invitation to another). Something within resonated with ‘taking in others’ moods and emotions’ (“That’s it!” I thought.) Everything I intuitively sensed and could only guess about myself was confirmed. I was hinted at a high level of awareness. Potentially, if I didn’t screw things up.
I have been.
Right there I started seeing why, where and how I kept getting off track. Why I couldn’t stand loneliness and had trouble saying no when I wanted to say no; why inferiority complex; what was deteriorating my relationship and why didn’t I understand my partner? (hint – emotions weren’t mine) Also, I could now see why body awareness practices were an essential step to align with my true nature and get authentic because alignment is a way to avoid years on the counselor’s couch.
Diving into understanding my Human Design became a point of no return. Before and After.
A few days of studying the information and with a second attempt at finding a teacher, I found John Martin, a famous outsider in Human Design circles who lived in Hawaii. He had a radical approach and an invaluable ability to put everyone in their spot with or without a few swear words and a great sense of humor about getting stuck in the mental construct. “Sounds like the right person for me!” I thought.
I contacted him about a basic reading. The next day he replied to me and I was invited for a reading again sensing that he was the right teacher for me. After our first session, I had a fever and I couldn’t understand what was happening with my body: it was trembling, floating, resetting. It was as if I caught the flu but I barely went out and had no other symptoms. And somehow, I got this weird idea to try hirudo therapy (leeches therapy). They say that this ‘virus’ either activates or not. A month later I started a year-long certification course with John.
The first year was the most intense because all the mental burden I accumulated over the years was being disintegrated, and going through what was called ‘shuddering’ was painful. Listening to my body, minute by minute, day by day, I was aligning with my trajectory in life where I was meeting the right people, receiving the right invitations and opportunities, and finding myself in the right places at the right time.
through trusting your body – to understanding of what you are seeking in this life
through the discomfort of awcknoledging your Shadow self tactics – to inner liberation
thought understanding of your inner conundrums – to inspiration
The first year was the most intense because all the mental burden I accumulated over the years was being disintegrated, and going through what was called ‘shuddering’ was painful. Listening to my body, minute by minute, day by day, I was aligning with my trajectory in life where I was meeting the right people, receiving the right invitations and opportunities, and finding myself in the right places at the right time.
My experiment was not an instant transformation or a quick fix. Daily work of witnessing and catching my inner demons, listening to my intuition vigilantly and observing what was correct for me. As much as my mind wanted to start broadcasting Human Design out in the world, I wasn’t ready. I did private sessions and readings every once in a while, but with so much individuality (being a freak!) in my design, I first had to verify everything through my experience and then share it with the world.
through harvesting your talents and gift – to clarity of what you want to do
through coming out of your comfort zone – to your power
through surrendering to your body sensations – to your truth